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Drowning
Drowning in a sea of voices,
small voices, angry voices, accusing voices, relentless voices,
Drowning in a sea of papers,
keep track, next steps, fill the gaps, can't stop,
It's rushing over me, I can't breathe,
gasping for air, loosing the energy to stay afloat,
What if I let go? What if I drift? What if I stop?
I see their eyes, their sweet innocent eyes starring up at me with their eagerness,
their hopes and dreams are in my hands,
The love streams out of mt chest with such intensity it hurts,
I want to give them everything,
I am their champion, no matter what,
I believe in them so deeply, in ways I longed for growing up,
I heal my scars with my passion to inspire,
don't give up, you can do anything,
but how do I ignite this again in myself?
The water and current is pulling me under,
I am fighting it with all my strength,
every so often I let go, sink a little under,
drift along under the surface,
and it's so quiet, so peaceful,
I take in my surroundings,
but then I realise I can't stay under...
I need to breathe,
I have to face what's on the surface,
I have to come up for air,
I just feel so heavy,
the pressure, the expectations, the exhaustion,
Finally I let go, I let go of the weight and it sinks down into the depths of the water,
I look up and I feel myself lifting and I feel light and free,
I feel the gentle motion of the water around me,
as it guides me in a new direction,
I take a deep breath and feel the warmth of the sun on my face
and I close my eyes as I drink it in,
The water wraps itself around me and I feel safe,
it glides my body along and I trickle my fingers along the waters surface,
it gently lays me down onto the sand
and I feel a sense of calm,
every so often the waves softly wash over my feet
and I stroke the soft silky sand with my fingertips.
For the first time I feel awake,
like I might be able to find my way to happiness,
I want to look forward to the path ahead,
but I find myself looking back across the water at how far I have come.
